Day 1: Setting myself free | valkyrie16's Blog

I did it! :D It's hard of course, to close & lock the door of my social network. Last night I bought food & eat dinner with my sis while we watch T.V together. I missed spending time with her too. We laughed & she noticed my cough is getting worse. I felt even worse yesterday but I need to go to work still cuz i got alot of pending jobs. My boss even asked if I'm ok & I was like O_O (abuden?) :))... My voice is different & I can't breathe while working but I still managed to finish my job before going home. After our dinner, I threw our rubbish to the disposal area of our building & something funny happened. I forgot that the door will be locked once it closes. Oh God I didn't know what to do :)) I was locked in the disposal room & i cannot breathe XD... I went to the next floor which is the 7th, still locked.. went to the 6th still locked,.. I should have brought my phone so I can messaged my sis but I didn't know this will happen.. Well by the mercy of God i found an open door. I feel so stupid. 4th floor is my life saver, I thought I will sleep beside those trashes :)).. Went to the lift to go back to my floor again, thinking what if all the floors are closed I might just cry I hope someone will soon help me & look for me XD... I felt nervous tha time & alone.. I called this situation "When the emo got stupid & goes emoiest" :)) it's the superlative form cuz I thought I'll spend my night there. After that I watched a movie that my friend told me to watch (I can't think straight). But I didn't finish it cuz i feel sick & sleepy, left my laptop on the whole night. I'm so out of my title, this is not the real story of my blog, it's just an introduction XD.

I got locked up accidentally & I thought I can't get away. But the only way to get out is to find an open door. I tried each floor like how I tried to move on. I haven't found an open door yet but guess what? I will find it, i will. I am setting myself free from all of this & removing myself to too much social networking is my first step. If I continue seeing her, talking to her the feelings wouldn't go so I think I should be the one turning my back away. I don't regret doing this as i wasn't the first one who turned my back with this love. I got a new song playing now & as always I live with the lyrics. You got to set me free cuz I am setting myself free too from you..

We often fool ourselves
And say that it's love
Only cause when it's gone We end up being lonely
So how are we to know That it just isn't so
That we just have to let each other go
There were many times
When we shared precious moments
But later realized they were only stolen moments
So how are we to know That it just wasn't so
That we just had to let each other go

Each day remains my love for you
Keeps growing stronger But everytime we meet
Makes leaving you so much harder
So how are we to know That this just wasn't so
That we just have to let each other go

If loving you is all that means to me
When being happy is all I hope you'd be
Then loving you must mean
I really have to set you free
Letting go is not an easy task
When smiling feels like
I must wear this lonely mask
It hurts deep inside And I just cannot hide
That there's anguish at the thought
That we should have to part

If loving you is all that means to me
When being happy is all I hope you'd be
Then loving you must mean
I really have to set you free

The feelings wouldn't go away if i keep speaking to you & it makes even way harder for me to forget you. I always want you to be happy & just like how the song goes that loving you must mean I really have to set you free..forgive me, I have to forget you. I have to go away as far as I could cuz Iam being unfair to myself now that I still think about you while you have somebody else now. I need to slap myself everyday to make me snap back to reality & keep moving. I'm still not ok, I would lie to myself If i say Iam ok now after a week of us parting ways. The last relationship that I struggled with took me a year to move on (with a guy). I was always true when I fall in love. This I know will take more time. & should start today. Iam unlocking myself from you, I let go of your hand, I'm leaving the room where you last left me... Iam setting myself free...

Song: Set you free - MYMP