Love withdrawal | valkyrie16's Blog

I am a love believer ever since cuz it's the most wonderful thing to feel. It's a great feeling to fall in love but hard to forget it when u got hurt. Music helps me a lot to move on. I listen to same songs & look for new ones that I think would help me better. It happens I clicked to this song on youtube today & realized something. It hits me bulls eye & thought about it while I smoke awhile back... Everyone goes through this part of life, I know I am not the only one. I found this song so true, the lyrics says it all. A part of it goes like this:

First, you think the worst is a broken heart 
What's gonna kill you is the second part 
And the third, is when your world splits down the middle 
And fourth, you're gonna think that you fixed yourself 
Fifth, you see them out with someone else 
And the sixth, is when you admit that you may have messed up a little.

I'm going to take a Love withdrawal starting today & remove myself to my social network for awhile. I think it would greatly help me not just my heart but to take sometime for myself too. I was trying to divert myself to something else but still it doesn't help. I tried to go back to my reading habbit but my mind is still somewhere else. Then just now I accidentally typed tried to tired :D.. Should I keep on trying? or I'm tired of trying? I know I made a promise to someone that I will still stay cool & be ok with us to keep intouch. Man I cannot do it! It's like I'm cheating myself. It's like I'm blind folded, shut down this part of me & just go on. It's like I stepped on a dog's s**t, removed it & I continue walking.. It still stinks & I can still smell it (pardon my grossness). My 1st one did hurt, the second one is a million times painful. The 3rd one? I don't know, I hate surprises. It could be certainly bad or good, but who knows after my 3rd I'll just get back to being straight :)). But not ready for that 3rd love too & I don't know If I should continue it as well. It's like a trial & error experiment or a lucky draw. You get lucky good for u, you got nothing oh that sucks. You lose a lot that is like suicide :)). & I don't wanna go on suicidal thingy cuz I am not like that. It's All's well that ends well, a lot of things happen to me some are good some are not but it's the ingredients of life. Maybe I'm doing this out of desperation or maybe I'm just getting tired of it. Shifting my head to another perspective & I realized my six degrees of separation. Wish me luck ^^ xoxo

I will still listen to this tho..
The script - Six Degrees of Separation