Nobody Knows It But Me | valkyrie16's Blog

I'm writing this one to you directly & hoping you can read this.

Those 3 months were the sweetest I ever had. You know I am so happy with you & u know how much u made me really happy. I'm still figuring out what I've done wrong that you turned your back on me and all the while I thought we're doing so good. Maybe I don't really know so well and still I cannot read & guess what was running through your mind during the last days we had. I do regret that I didn't fight for my love for you but you know me, I would not force myself to anyone that's why when you said you don't want US anymore I instantly stepped back. I don't know how you really feel right now but I hope you are happy with her. When I patched things out today I figured out maybe you were not happy with me & you found this excitement with the girl whom I thought my friend too. I wouldn't touch that one as I'm outside of your decision. It's your decision not mine, you are free to choose but it really hurts me so much to know you don't love me anymore & you chose someone I really know. But aside from this, I don't really care now whom you chose to love.. I'm just hoping you can read this.

I hope you felt the love I wanted you to feel cuz everything is real & I didn't fake it. You know all the previous relationships I had & I know you know how much this hurts for me right now. Nobody knows me well but you cuz I trusted you that much but I am really disappointed. I will cherish all the memories we had cuz all of it are happy memories, the fun we had together, the music you shared which are all unheard for me. The movies we watched even tho my internet connection is so crappy that I cannot finish it but still you will say "it's ok ^^" even tho I know you are disappointed as well. I miss talking to you right now, I miss the morning that I will wake up with my smile &  think of you. I will immediately grab my phone to greet you "Good morning love ^^". I miss the time when I get home from my work that I am always excited to turn on my laptop cuz I know you are on the other end of the internet line. I miss laughing with you when we make fun of the people in the game we were playing. I miss staying in your virtual room & spend most of time with you. I miss staying up so late for you cuz I don't mind getting less sleep cuz u know I love you that much & I love spending my time with you more than anyone else. Now I don't know how will I spend my coming weekend. This morning in my shower I was thinking what shall I do this weekend since you're gone... I hate that I lose you, I hate that I have a lot of undone things that I wanted to do with you. I hate that we only had this short time for me to let you feel my love... I hate that I love you so much that I cannot erase you on my mind. & I hate I'm so crying right now while I am typing this blog. I miss you, I really miss you & I don't know If you cry for me too. I admit my days are so lonely without you. I pretend to everyone i talked with that I am ok, I always put on my smile but inside I am crying and dying. I'm trying to move on knowing that you are happy now with someone. But Im going to tell you this for the very last time... I love you, I still love you & I will always love you...  I'm sorry that I love you this much, I pretended everything is fine with me but is not! I would lie if I will not tell you that I still want you back... If you are happy now then Iam happy for you too...  I know your change of heart is my fault as well,.. I'm sorry for my shortcomings & if i were so insensitive Im so sorry... I will try to move one, it's hard,. but a lot of things reminds me of you. I chose to be silent, i wanted to tell you something the last time I messaged you but I couldn't let it out anymore as my tears drowned me & I cannot type anymore... But I am happy that the last message I typed was your name... I won't say more, my eyes are blocked with tears right now that I couldn't make this anymore longer... I wish you all the best I know you are a wonderful person & a lot of good things awaits you after your school. Take care always, I Love You...

Just like the old days, you may copy & paste this on youtube & I miss doing this with you too.
Babyface - Nobody Knows It But Me ( Lryics )